lost for words

The hardest essay to compose is one that the heart cannot even phantom. I cannot finish the letter because I cannot bear to pen. The the ending ending marks the start of our separation. Why can't I show someone how much it hurts me as well? The letter should not even exist, cause there is nothing i can write in words that should even reflect how I am feeling now. But its now or never. My feelings are secondary to the strength that is needed to leave with composure.