from gems to uems

a recent gathering made me realise the usefulness of taking the extra modules outside boring engineering. To be fair, I am not at all complaining for having to complete these extra modules since they are a good weekly get away vacation from the engineering faculty. But in more recent conversations allowed me to understand the techinical lingo from other faculties. The fun part is having many other friends in different faculties learning different cores, yet still being able to converse freely over topics typical to the different field of studies due to the insight given from taking their modules. While i claim not be an expert in whatever is been done across or down the road and in those other labs, it definitely is enjoyable relating to each other while appreciating the techincal aspects of the conversation. It really is a pity though that many people cannot remember much of what they have studied from these modules thinking that it is of little or close to no relevance in their lifes. The truth is, the more specialise the field of study we delve into the more effort we should place on learning a broader. As there is only limited enforcment on how much we should learn, it then falls in our own hands to pick up these life enriching know hows. Perhaps it is for the sake of being a less boring person, but sometimes it is a good way to pull up the CAP too =)

The Brain

I wonder if the brain controls what i am feeling or if I could control the way I want my brain to feel. I wish the latter was possible. They say a positive attitude is impt to make the person feel good and optimistic. However, I sometimes wonder where this attitiude comes from. This feeling of restlessness since preparing for exams til now lingers ever so often when I am alone. I feel that the happiness i harness and portray is transient, that inherently I am extremely sad, worried and vexed. The word 'burdened' would be great at this point in time, cause people around me seem to take for granted that my life is in the green, but it isnt. Ignorance is not always bliss, but it is a relief. Relief that there is someone to lean on or ask in times of hesitance. On that note, I admit, I have no one to lean on. I have to balance the expectations of my family, gf, friends and relatives. Do extremely well for my studies, for failure is not an option for someone like me. Make sure I am not a nerd, while trying to curb my arrogance. Work for a better future, one that exceeds the league of my father. Worse of all. Be a good person. I believe the word tiring is just the tip of the ice berg. There are times i wish i could just hide in isolation and tear to expel this anguish. But thats not expected of me, its a sign of weakness, and I am not expected to be that. In a confusing mixture of love, hate, infatuation, logic, gambles and politics, I wonder how its possible to gather my thoughts. I wonder if i am normal..