the end draws near

I wish i knew how things will end before they do. To forsee the future would be pretty useful especially at times like these. With so many things hanging on a thread, the ending is just another thriller. Twist and turns down a windy road, I wish I knew if i would crash and burn. While the word 'end' ends only at a point I can barely phantom, what i do know is that, with great desire for this week to end as quickly as possible, it only pains to know that each hastened ending speaks of time flown by with the blink of an eye. It difficult to decide how I should feel at the end of each chapter in life, but I hope the ending can speak for itelf. In each phase so predominantly short yet bitterly-sweet, perhaps its not about leaving with a bang or bust, but to leave with as little baggage as possible. So heavy a burden it is to carry the mounting hopes of each unfulfilled chapter that there is much relief in starting afresh. Regret is a surprise much of the time because we never know if we could do more only but at the end. Well, if not it wouldnt be called regret. As each chapter comes to a close, the remaining pages start to thin, there is only so little time we can hardly afford. Just make sure that before u sign off for one last time, be sure your book is worth the read with memories that others can share and leave with one last breath so silent no one knew you left.

~ The longest time away from today is that of yesterday

Success

3 yrs on and the disparity is still great, this can't be.. I can't let this happen anymore, no one should get left behind. Perhaps the teaching is all wrong, the problems does not lie in the content or the context, but a set of skills. Imperative to being effective is not just based on situation awareness but a series of skills used and honed over the years. Reading Stephen Covey's book does raise awareness, yet does not necessarily conclude anything, as it takes more time to realise into actions those printed text.

What can I say is impt at this point? I better write it down so that I won't forget,

Discipline - The ability to do what others cannot because they lack the will power to accomplish
Planning - Make sure a game plan is set forth to guide
Initiative - Having a plan is useless if one doesn't initiate it
Confidence - Lead on even if you are lost
Fun - Never start on anything boring til you have settled your heart in a comfortable place.
Zen - Never forget to appreciate the little things that keep your mind peaceful
Independence - Don't follow for the sake of convenience, do what u know is good for yourself
Decisive - Make a decision even if you hate the outcome of both options
Excuses - Don't give yourself any

just hope i wont forget this, even then I think I am not performing up to mark. Damn!

toes threaded on

Pretty agitated today because Melissa got some sterile fluid sprayed on her that came from a HIV postive fella. Worry turns to anger because of the lack of understanding, not the lack of understanding for HIV, but that of the need to. Well apparently this guy has a history of promiscuity probs which is why he ended up in this disgusting state. No pitance or sympathy shall be spared for even in his dying breaths is he causing trouble to someone i love. If i had it my way he will prob be dead by now. Not trying to play God here, it just being angry. I mean he probably doesn't even care about the danger he is posing to others with his inconsiderate actions. Just lying there on the hospital bed. In the first place how the hell did he end up in the miserable state? haha wat a bugger! sure dont wanna end up like him. If anithing were to happen to melissa I will personally trip over his life support system.